;( been fighting way too long.
tell me.how long can i keep up?will i get stronger.
will it be too much for me.
i keep comparing. looking at other people's life, comparing it with my own.
i should know by now that it don't matter. that it really dont.
its like.... i got myself out of the mess.
cleared the mess in my head. to fall back in, into this abyss of darkness.
so tell me.
let me know.
give me a clue. an inkling.

The feeling of struggle became a norm for me. Such that when I finally figured out what's bothering me ytrday...and rid of it. I almost...... 
On the verge of break through.

I'm at an all time low.

 wake me up.

;( what am I doing. 

Who am I. 

What do I make of this life?
What's life suppose to be. How's it suppose to go!

What am I doing with my life really!!!