Contention

;I'm out of my mind right now, but you may leave a message.

Gettin my ass outta this worlllllllllllddddddddd.

Getaway

No no, Nothing's gna bring me down.

Nobody knows what we are, the friendship indescribable baby.
More more .
Did i mention how good it feels to have somebody to share stuffs with.
When your heart's a wreck, and your head's a mess, all you need are best friends, I guess.
They know that you're slow, stupid, and mess around.
Yet they still don't care about being seen with you in public.
Because they're idiots too.

Grins. *stares at all of you girls who bothers to read this.



Damn, i am glad. Glad that ... there is the 2H08 girlllssss. Heh heh. (:
Why do I always have to do the things I suck at? Like decision making.
But then again, its okayy heh. I will learn. ( fuck it) and darn. I rmbred in primary school during a public speaking workshop, the teacher asked who can make decisions fast. The whole class, only 4 of US raise up our hands! I was one of theemm. Look what-happeend. Sighs. * slaps forehead. Then again, its okay, choices are part and parcels of life.


Ps: the question he asked me, to test if i was really fast in making decision was :
What are you going to have for dinner later?
......
......
Guess what. I think i stammered on that too. Like wtf?
( k no no no. Not thaat bad )



So, yeah. Today i heard many things. I am so glad because i realized hey, i am not alone in this.


Aw roar. Hm. I like cararamel jelly frappoccino shit from starbucks, i wish it appear right infront of me now. Lol, i rmbred betty told me '' you know i had to take a deep breath after ordering'' cause the name of the coffee was darn long and she said it in one shot. Yesterday, John made my day in track... like really. He is one hell of a funny dude. Hurhh. We were playing the '' one-person- say- one -word and then create a story kinda game. And he kept attacking panda. Ha ha, Eat that.
Anyway, yeah. (:

The night before the night before, i went to find Crystal seet, my primary school best friend! He he, my dear girl, its been so long since i've seen her! She's the one, the one who sparked off the ''smiling me'', cause she's got a great smile too!

Then, The night before, I called TEENAGE STARZ. ( the childhood gang) to come to my house to celebrate bro's birthday. I realized my bro got 3 cakes for his 17th birthday! Wthel.

Its time to face the world courageously.
I wanna be clear headed.
I am armed with all i need, I wnna move on and achieve more.





;Experience is the worst teacher:
it gives the test before presenting the lesson.

Far away

7.10am in the morning, Heading to school right soon.

Betty! You just made me cried like ... aw, And yeah. I love you babyyyyy.

take that,.

I'm falling back into your grace

Uncle's and bro advanced birthday celebration,.

Do you see the three of us! This is a cool vibrating shades that help you massage your eyes. Heh, Xin laughed her ass off when i put it on, cause my whole face was shaking i think! Eh, wa. Sometimes massage can be quite uncomfortable loh. Esp when they massage your leg, and you just wna kick the person cause its darn ticklish .
This little girl here go bluff me say she know how to switch on the television and change to channel 5. I kept asking her '' you sure not'', then she '' SUURREE! SUREEE! Must wait one''. Then, both of us lied on the bed ( in the above position) and stared at the blank screen for 5 mins untill i told her to let me try. I ON-nned the tv in 10secs, WAAAAAA. Missed 5 mins of the final fantasy show, Heh. It was pretty nicee.... SKYY! i mean.... CLOUD. The blonde hair dude.

After church with Heather, i went to find bro and his friends cause they were playing pool at parkway. I called him and his so called part-time girlf.(-,- ) answered and told me to go there, cause they want to surprise him with a cake. Sweet ah!

So, i rushed there and watched the pros play... and

i thought i can '' monkey see, monkey do'' and probably won't do so bad but....

I HIT IN ONE BALL ONLY. I can't aim with a stick for nuts, Like really. But then again,

EH ONE BALL LEH. Ha ha, And as quoted by adriain '' you hit a ball. you're starting to get the hang of it hurh! ''. Ass.

''' KELLVIN, wo yao gen KRISTAL pai zhao.''

'' KELVINN, Wo gen ni de mei mei pai zhao leh! Jealous ma ''.

Loll,wtf -,- Joker. He entertained me alot. !

KELVIN TANN( thanks for helping me hit in the rest of the 14 balls-,- ) heh.

Wait. what do you want for your birthday again?



I will walk and i will not stumble ever again.

Thanks Heather, You made my weekend.

Church was awesome and powerful.

Felt the revelation as many people came forth and prayed for me.

How nice can they be? They know me and called me by my name even before i know them,
and tears just came down as they spoke to me. Evryword really hit me like a double edged sword. And i always thought he was not there and so distant? How could i. God loves me so much. I just pray that all these will continue and i will keep walking in his light. Amen.

I WNAA PLAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Case closed,

THROW UP YOUR ARMS INTO THE SKY.

Things are looking up!


i.am.great.



Go hear the song Me without you-ashley tisdale.
The lyrics speak it all about the people who means sthg to me.

When everything falls apart

And it seems like the world

Is crashing at my feet

You like me the best

When 'm a mess

When I'm my own worst enemy

You make me feel beautiful

When I have nothing left to prove

And I can't imagine

How I'd make it through

there's no me without you.

Went to watch ''Where got ghost'' on Thursday with Wendy, Huixunn,Vinnie, Kylie and Janice.I told them i didnt like this kind of show, was supposed to watch '' the proposal'', But hell. I had a great laugh. ( ok lah.. )


''Why the orange no taste!?'
*pause and think for some time.
'' Boss, cause its sugar free.''.
And i rmbr last time poh yee said , '' i thought sugar free, means they add the sugar free for you! ''. Haha ha, wth.


And Ivan did the mooonwalk and feell on his ass, Sirong banged the door with his fist, and the door rebounded back on his head. Aw damn, am i deprived or what. Atcually, i only know all these due to the reanactment of the scene by Ryan who laughed like shit-,- Grins./

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Oh well, Then today supposed to go out with Adrian and his friendss! But, last min cancelled. Called many people to go out on the way home, but turns out, noobody was free. In the end, when i finally reached home and sstill got nothing on, i resorted to calling Terrence to bring poker cards down. But wtf, he didnt have poker cards at home-,- Chess also don't have-,-.

So, i decided to just concede and head home early .


I rmbred going out with Grace and the group and mum screamed at me through the phone! I was atcually kinda... pissed. As in, her reaction was BIG. Its like i expected a MEOW and got a ROAR . ( that kinda thing you know ) .Though she meant well, but yeah. Well... it was 2 plus am, i was at grandlink, Why did she get worried? Go figure. No prize for guessing it right. Thouroughly enjoyed myself that night. Bro is not back yet! What an ass,



Your mercy saved me, your mercy made me whole.



Its time to rest, not to slip away

Give me a moment to grieve

You know, its like one step forward and three steps back.
Its like driving round a one way street.

Dear diary, its been long since i typed things out here. Rmbr how we used to have diary with locks when we were young? But as quoted from wendy, all the keys used to unlock the diary is the same-,- So atcually, it aint really private anymore. Its been days or should i say weeks since Betty had left. I realized, i talk very little now.___. Betty you know i will wait for you to come back! I will be waiting for that day.... And nights we will spent talking cock till day break. heyyy..
And, So common tests are done-ed with! Honestly, i don't know, i prepared so much daily in school but somehow i feel like i didnt perform this time. Its.. okay kris. Heeh. Never regreeted the preparation, cause like what Num said '' If an athelete wants to run a 4km run, how does he expect to run 1km a week and expect to finish the race well ? '' . So, yeaah.

So live your life like you will not live it twice.
Would you treat each moment like your last?

Lately, i feel like i can cry, any freaking time. Freaky. They say people with choices are fortunate, but when you are clueless about what decision to make, it gets what-the-hellish.
But you know, ultimately, i just wna do things that makes me happy, hang out with anyone who has the ability to make me happy! Scratch the rest, rly./

I feel spiritually dry, so faithless, and in class, when arron told mee'' CAUSE I BELIEVE, I HAVE FAITH''. I am like... whoa, whoa. To say that, it really takes alot of conviction.

I want to put down everything i have now, and after reading the newspaper on the coolest job on earth : THIS GUY GET PAID HUNDERDS OF THOUSAND TO GO EXPERIENCE AUSTRALIA'S TOURISM SPOTS, GO SNORKELLING EVERYDAY, GET FREE HOUSE AND ALL THE SHIT just to blog about Australia and boost its tourism ''

tell me, whre got people so lucky?

Xin say she would'nt mind going on and escapade with me, I dream alot about experiencing the world. One of them would be seating in the topless car and driving along sunway laggoon with xin. ! Sighs.

Get me out of here, i'm hung over.
Wait. this is not too bad
Time for a perception change.

Love ya people!
I had a great day, damn, i would love to blog about all the happy things and events that happened recenttly! But, somehow, this blog is rly just for me to type out whats been inside of me, k.... yeah.

^ ^ Heads up. Who do i run to?

So many last straws

i like how when you open too many windows, and your computer hanged then all you got to do is press three buttons on the keyboard.ctr alt dlt and wala! You wait awhile and everything gets cleared up for you.

Wonder why life can't bee this way.What is the keey? What is the 3 buttons i need, to get it all straight. .i don't wna complicate things . I've stopped running in endless mini circles.Waste of my breath.

Is there a generic formula for long never ending happiness?
Because it seems like flowers will wither, curtains close, sun sets, and you lose the happy moment you were enjoying just awhile ago. I guess the only way we can do is to try to prolong it...Theres no wrong in trying to prolong sthg that aint gna last right?/

Did i mention that c.si miami is darrn it cool! I think forensics experts are dammitt great people to learn from.

You aint it.

Sometimes you gta break down and breatheee!
Today was hell of an ejoyable day. Thanks to the effians girlies.

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Ho ho, how are you people?
This is boring that is boring, aint got no mood . But looking on the brighter side,
i am going snow city with cousins! I am pretty much looking forward to it. Heeh.
Today, track was quite(( * accomplishing. ) yeah. Though the sun was super kind to shine its warm rays down mercilessly on us. ! But , Hm. it was pretty great. BETTYY, this thursday, its gna be our last training tghetre. YOU KNOW THATTTT.? You know if i were to rank the best things i enjoy and take pleasure in in this moment of my life, one of them would be TRACK TRAININGS WITH BETTY, ! Though , yeah there are other peeeps but.. ( Sad smile)

Y''ll knw, i don't wna be in this positon, nor feel this way.

I wish I was a little girl again, because broken arms hurt lesser than broken hearts. Hurrrrhhh.

Yeah, i am clueless.
Whatever.

MIssing me- rj helton

Credits to farah: hell. I didnt knw it was me at first. I took seconds to finally realize it was me.
heh.

its been so long since i heard the song '' missing me! ''. Wow, memoriesss.

I hope i can diffrentiate baddies frm knights and angels, ya knw?

So long so far, Nothing is ever what it seeems

If the glass is half empty, it can always be filled. If the glass is half full, it can always be spilled.

Why didnt i look around, and open up my eyes to all thats coming.

UP FOR GRABS

HILL SONG CONCERT-
Thanks arron for that night man! Couldnt have experienced it w/o you man. And yeah,, it was a greeaat night! Arron's friend and i were jumping up and down, Lolll. Imagine arron standing still in the middle clapping and two people beside him going crazy-,- ha ha ha.

Thre were many people! Befr that, i went to track outing for betty's farewellll! it was super fun. Heh. I had a hell of a great time., We listened to waves, see waves crashing against the rocks, volleyballed, MY TEAM WON. ha ha ,. Heh . Had a great time with the trackers, loveee them maan. ! Huikhun came my house after that, and accompanied me to expo were i met Arron and his friend! .I've got the photos! Thanks to shija who's so kind to give me his fb password. Heh. Maybe next timeeeee.

Ktv- half the time, we were shouting, and trying to sing.

eh,but. yeah. effort counts. We cam be bettter! ................ heh.

Luckily the room soundproof hor heh.

I admire and respect my parents, for getting up and doing the same thing all over again every day and not complaining, and not harbouring the thought of ever giving up doing what their doing. And i wonder what gave them the motivation? Then i came to a conclusion that yeah, they did it for me and big bro. heh, for this family, to keep it all goingggggg!

Steamboat pics next time! WALAO. THIS TOOK UP 1 HR OF MY TIME. VINNIE AND HUIXUN,, THIS IS FOR YOU TWO MAAAN. Grab them well , !