Six billion souls.

It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst,

it is the person who saves you when you didnt even notice that you needed help,

mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.

Confessions of a mouldy heart,

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Wasup lately... Went to rewatch High school musical3.Thanks PianZi & Valencia fr the tickets.

I can't help but want to clap for them at the end of the movie.You know,with the red curtains and all that. Went to play tennis with Valerie, lorna & aunty bella.Which was verry tiring because the court was irritating-ly big & the ball was rocketing everywhere but just not in the zone. But, we managed to get the gist of it .. ... right valerie?It was when we decided to play...

softly. ha ha. Valencia & my bro are earning big buckssss. Bro already got 500+ bucks. What is this man, where's the fairness in this world. sigh. (= Share some piesweets.

Recaping way back; -- Went to shaoyun's house halfway through badminton with the guys . Grace got excited midway.grin. The flight of stairs lead directly to her door, no doorway or anyth. Scary.I might very well roll down the stairs every time i step out of her room. Played catching&ice and water in the cc after badminton, which was.. .. quite fun! I rather be the chaser then the chasee. The feeling of someone hot on your heels is just.. '' WAA''. ... ... Saw terrence on the way and he was kind enough to give directions. ... Ha ha.

Six billion people in the world,

six billion souls.

And sometimes, all you need is one. ...

Life's just passing me through.

At least.. it ain't running me down.

i need a breather.

i need to know.. the way.

Your eyes are the brightest among the colours.

* Zu takes out helmet.
Aunt: EH KRISTAL WANT TO RIDE BIKE ANOT?
Me: I WANTTTT!!
Aunt: EH. ZU AH. GO RIDE HER. I TRUST YOU AH. HA HAHA
Zu: COME AH. * wears back helmet. HA HAHA.

OMG!@#?#####

AW MAN. MY FIRST TIME SEATING ON A MOTORBIKE! COOL OR WHATTTT.
I CANNNOT SLEEP FR THE WHOLE NIGHT ALREADDY. THANKS zu { i can't really rmbr your name! but you are great! } FOR THE BIKE RIDE. I CAN LIVE TODAY WITHOUT REGRETS.HA HA HA. CRAZZZZY. THE FIRST TIME I TOUCHED THE HELMET, PUT IT ON MY HEAD, FEEL MY HAIR FORMING TO THE SHAPE OF THE BLACK HELMET, GOT UP THE BIKE, HELD ON TO HIM AND POOF, WE WERE SPEEDING AROUND. THE WIND BLOWING PAST FAST AND COOL. I TIGHTENED MY GRIP AND HELD ON TO MY HELMET.CAUSE IT FELT LIKE IT WAS GONNA DROP OFF EVERYTIME I WANT TO LOOK UP . {K, the helmet too big for my head}. SLOWING DOWN ROUND THE CORNER AND HUMPS,WE TALKED AND ALL I REPEATED LIKE A MULFUNCTIONING ROBOT WAS : '' VERY FUN!VERY FUN!'' THROUGHOUT THE TRIP. Boy, i couldn't stop smiling and giggiling.

A mere minutes later, i was back to Canadian 241.* poofs.
Thre goes the ride. The best virgin ride ever.

Xo;Thanks Abba lord in heaven.

I promise to make things right

Ok. There is somewhat no motivation to blog ( k, i mean my tagboard) lol.

But i think i am prolly gonna keep it.And i figured, only a handful know about this. So, its cool , i feel more safe typing all these out.

live has been great.. well almost.

Just wna say: Sorry gor, . This is the first ever time i see you ___ in years after since you stopped being a toddler. Lol. You are going prom tonight, and highlighting your hair now.

Tough luck! i wna highlight my hair again, well. Just, for the fun and novelty of it all.

I feel that it is quite dull to see your black hair everyday. * pulls streaked-faded brown hair.

K, Then.... many people made my day ytrday night. People like Alson. ! who come and bullshit so much! ha ha ha. The conver was great, I bet you laugh your ass out if you read it.

Then, i realized i have been... cleansed. I have been an green-eyed monstor, called Miss jealousy for a long time now. Sometimes, you do feel that sense of jealousy don't you? When you see your close friend being close to someone else and you watch yourself lose your place helplessly. Yet knowing that your friend is well, happy. Theres only. so. much. you. can. do. hurh. Then, terrence and me have decided to go down at night to the playground to play cards . HA HA HA.

Well, we live so close to each other, and i am always tempted to scream his name from where i am. Maybe, just maybe, he will hear the slight voice coming from the next block. Lol. Then, its night cycling at ecp,? HA HA HA.

I can't wait to watch the chihua hua . I bet it is gonna be so darn funny. K, this is about it.

I was told to give you'll a chance.

I should? should i.

Its better to have one more close friend then one more not-so-close friend.

Sorry,t hanks sorry.

Riding through the monsoon

'' Through it all, i made my mistakes, i stumbled and fall. Thoughts went unspoken,

All these memories fall to the ground. I realized i am the sorta person who will bleed to know that i am alive.

Ayoh, 3F 3F 3F 3F,
thats what i have typing for the past whole night after work.
My heart was beating so darn blardy fking fast i tell you, as fast as when you needed to go to the toilet badly and the teacher gave you a loud NO, WAIT''. but the prob is, the last thing you needed to do was wait, and you were afraid you were gna pee on your pants anytime soon that sort . No , really. When i heard that people knew their results already the first word in my mind was , '' shit. And i could feel my heart fly to somewhere else. Or maybe, i just couldn't feel it pumping anymore. Then, my brother was being such an angel{ i got stuck, and he volunteered this word} , he ran down and got it up for me. HA.oky, No lit, So its still double,. , i should be happy hurh? Or, should i not.

Canadian was fun, i cannot stop to describe. The malay workers are all fun people! (= grins. I laughed almost all the times. They were playing ''take a bow'' '' Always be my baby'' ''When you look me in the eyes'' and all those songs that you are sure to know and sing along with. th entire day! (= grins. But i got a little bored after they start playing the 'techno kinds& danced to it. I learnt to fold the boxes! And folded over 100 in 20mins? Don't play play. Its considered a great achievement for someone like me who didnt even know how to close the box last time! .*beams. k, but. as a result, i cut my middle finger.
So,Moral of the story : Folding boxes are fun and easssy.

Halfway through a customer's call , the lyrics '' take it easy, there's nothing we can't fix'' got onto me. And i looked around me, and thought : '' hey, i have a whole load of people around me abd with me ! And it feels great. The music was playing, everybody was lauging, and they were reaally funny and entertaning. ! It made my day and made me wish for a standstill.


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ANNNNDD. DO YOU FEEL BORED DURING THE HOLIDAYS? FEEL LIKE THERE ARE NO SHOWS WORTH YOUR TIME. FEEL LIKE YOU NEED SOMETHING INSTEAD OF JUST SOME SADISTIC MOVIE ( GRINS) TO KILL YOUR TIME. THEN CLICK HERE.

AND GO WATCH .

Paris hilton my new bff
i sumpa you will not regrreeet and maybe even thank me for the intro.
ha ha ha.

http://www.mtv.com/videos/paris-hiltons-my-new-bff-ep-7-my-kind-of-people/1598775/playlist.jhtml

This is episode 7, if you like, start from episode 1.


Envy is ignorance,immitation is suicide.


I regret closing my blog for along time now!
cause, those frequent taggers are gone!
Yet the hitcounter keeps going up.
Don't marde tell me you people are refreshing the page thats why-.-
HA HA

Deep feelings, feelings i can't unearth.

It's so overdue
Everyday seven takes of the same.

i never felt like this before, this feeling.
Its the feeling.. of... being. ... plain lost.

Its like.. a bridge, a phase. Where you go from whining '' i don't want to cross the bridge!'' to,
'' i want to see whats in store for me on the other side of the bridge! '' Yet, its the feeling of uncertantity. Then, its not all about bridges. its like.. about. being at cross roads. Not being sure where you want to go, where is the place that truly, you belong. Not sure, yet knowing that --Hey dickheadkris,and well every other dickheads. If you don't take action now, if you don't really know what you want, they. bye bye, the bridge is going down on you. So hey well, you cross that bridge. but, now., you are lost. directionless. looking and turning your head wildy. So many thoughts of this new ground you are stepping on. Like, why is it that people can just be contented with things likethat like that LIKe that. just... plain.. like that . Like, hey. It aint really as good as you think it is. Blinded? i supposed. Ah, who don't get blinded. really. Your vision blur, . whatever, Ask yourself .Where do you want to go from here? really. The things youa re investing in right now. is it fking worth it? Well.

i should'nt type anymore, sincei really don't know what i am typing.

Miser- Able at best

Aftr work,

Simple hapiness.(:

the pacifier.


Me, cheryl,xin.



Heyo: How are you peeps? Man it's been quite a while since i last did an entry yeah.Blogs are literally toiletbowls for you to wordvomit. So, here it goes. I decided to delete the previous one, for well, no particular reason. Okok, smack that. I thought of a better post. Ha. No song seems to get to me now. I'm not sure why. Atcually, i am unsure of so many things. Where i stand and all. but, really. I can't bother myself with this can't i? There's so much more to life than just doing the same things over and over again. Don't bullshit and say well, i am a student. Students are supposed to study well. but, ah. You are living a life, talking about Seconds that will not come back. So live your life, ey ey ey ey .- rihanna and ti.

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Life has been hectic baby. Been to uncle's house. Saw the twins there and their mother laughed as i attempted to carry one of the two and almost drop him on the floor { i would suffer from a panic attack if i see my 7months old flesh hanging unstabily 1.67m above ground} Well, they Kick HARD i tell you. Don't see them small and powerless. Been spending much time with Valerie , Amanda and valencia. Bridge, dai di, stress, you name it, we play it. And again, i never fail to have fun with them. Been talking to Derrick ( ys said not to call him this when i was younger! Hee. which made me giggle everytime i think of it) and Terrence too. Saw Audi in the lift today and the conversation went a lil weird. HA HA. Amanda's laugh is the power man. ( we need to train on our uno-stacko ah!! ha ha ). Went to the dental thing with valencia, quite a nice time. First time going, i, not her, got lost-.- She's going for a private party with fei lun hai, cool leh. .

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Then, i've worked at canadian which is really fun. Had a whole post i typed on sudden impulse, well, it shall not rot in the drafts, will publish it and not let it go wasted. Found another job with Valerie, distibute flyers in town! HA HA . Love it alot. Well, it is for fun and all. We took it on as we can give them out anytime, where and when we like. So long as we exchange it for Bosses namecards. One name card- 20cents.( ke lian ah ) So.... 50 bucks and above shouldnt be a problem counting that the first day today.. was really quite good. Explored Singapore... raffles hospital was a bad start though. Lol, i came to realize how friendly people atcuallly are! You know. it doesn't hurt to show your hapiness if you really are happy. Spread hapiness all around. Working middle-aged people on the road seems so possessed and stuck in their own life. Look around people. ! .Watched Quantinum of solace with Valerie's friend, williete or sthg. The blardy person beside williete could not blardy silent her phone i almost screamed at her. And the most irritating part is, her phone rang twice and long with the stupid anime ringtone. I don;t understand the story line leh! But, ah. Intresting, intresting.

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I want to do so many things, like gazing at stars again,nightfishing,nightbicyling this holidays. Things that will just kickstart my heart, I need a plan baby. Thy will be done. Grins.

Church has been great. no need for more words.

Ever feel...like, you need a strong arm to just pull you up/out from the predicament. Sigh.

All i could rmbr, the rest--Dust it away-yay-yay-yay. {ohh, this crush aint going away.. Ha ha /David archuleta, crush

If i were a boy,-beyonce.

Smokin' hawk away.

Dear daddy, I know you are worried about me.You told me about that guy who wants to give away her doctor to that construction worker, you told me about all the big life values, you told me how to choose wisely, you told me sometimes about the problems you faced. Though you spend most of your time in the pub and in golf and drinking so much you acquire a beer belly and left the little left of your time for me and gor, i know you care. ... right? you try to care as much as you can. well, thats good enough. You never say '' no'' to me before. You tell me to enjoy life as much as i can. you never scold me for any grades before. For instance, i was the only one in class who failed maths in p4, you never scolded me. You never scolded me for anything. You were only there to laugh it off with me and encourage me, always assuring me that you don't expect me to be the creme of the crop or anything. You kept assuring me and telling me'' i am not here to give you stress or pressure, only here to help you and make your life easier''. You tell me many things i never knew, always leaving me in wide-eyed wonder at how much you know. You are always the one talking and laughing in your group of friends. Always doing things to the extreme, and sacrificing yourself along the way. You have a bad temper. I do too. You are rash by nature, you rub your head of curly hair when you are in a delima. You stand up for what you think. You have big dreams, you want me to acomplish more than you. I told you i want to smoke, {so that you would quit}. You told me : Go ahead and smoke if you want, you can try. But, i advise you not to start. Cause, its very hard to quit. You told me, try it. I won't stop you. I can't. I am sorry for the tiff we had. You did it... because you cared. A father's love is always very quiet.

you listen to my endles chatters,

I rather die on my feet than live on my knees.

k,So how do i install dota.

Un ti titled.

WA. I GOT A STRONG URGET TO TRY DOTA. fun meh fun meh fun meh.



Bro got locked out of the house because me and him didn't know how to un lock the door. HA HA HA.

Goodnight world.

In my dreams, I give you my word.

I've been having many dreams these few days. ! All with differnt scenarios and places. Swimming pool, jail, { cause i stole a beebeesnack which costs a dammit 10cents from an indian ma ma shop and got caught on tape } , That dream was a long time ago., I woke up with my mind whirling. Wonder why this dream is the only one i can remember vividly. Old love songs make me... very touched. The power of oldies. ! AHHHH.

Now, the song that is stuck in my head is womanizer by britney spears. man man man, she 's coming back. ! How superb is that. And the show thats rockin me is Newport harbour on mtv. Clay& chrissy. (=

Wish for a different life.! Its cool that you got highschools,colleges,spring breaks,beach houses and endless partying on the other side of the world. So much differnt from Singapore, Where students here are all forced to take on a lifestyle that includes hardcore studying.! [to me lah hor.maybe its me and my easy-way-out thinking ]

Dreams are great. It brings us to places that we've never been before. ! FOR FREE leh. So..
so.... so....
DREAM MORE.!

Hey yo Sean kingston.

Dad told me a joke over dinner today.
A man wanted to cut a tree.

The magical tree said it would grant him 3 wishes if he did not chop it down.
The man complied.

The man asked firstly to be young again.

Then, the man asked to be rich.$

You must be thinking' '' Smart hurh.

ANDDD. lastly, he asked to be in the middle of a beautiful woman's leg.

Get it get itttt! sick. but, Man. It got into me. It was funny for the first second after i heard the joke. heh

Atcually, i really don't know what people want from me. Anywaay,.
i've been staying home today. I'm glad theres such a channel called .






and mtv and disney channel.

Thats what i have been living on for the past few days. !
I really love animals. Lah. ( k, who does'nt)
Maybee, when i grow up. I will go to Australia and help animals! Heh. Don't ask me why i want to go all the way to Australia. I just... It seems like a better environment there. Seems to me, like free-ness. Oh yah. I remembered! One of the places on my {Must-go-places lists is--- steve irwin zoo. grins

I remembered carrying a koala to take a photo. it was like 8kg. and i heard that if i drop the koala , need to pay money. YETT YOU KNOW WHAT. the people there took so blardy long to snap a photo. ! I could feel the koala clinging on my shirt and i could feel my hands losing grip.
But, no worries. I will never. ever. drop the koala. I sumpa.


Boy, this is so boring.
I am out of here.



Carry on you will miss me when i am gone,
guilty of everything.
guilty of every charm.
Roll away the horoscopes.
Settle down

Fly like paper get high like planes

Heh. I am back,. i am baccck leh. Hui lai le.
But, will not be blogging anything today! (:
I want to find a job at ecp blading shop soon! Though i am still on MC.
I am loosing my voice. Yet i keep on talking!


This holidays wuld be a blastttttt.
3moreweeks till if the doctors not lying like last time. when i kept asking them if will have scar they just smiled at me and tell me '' No worries''. Uncontrolled.Fun. CANNOT WAIT AH.

Wait................. it will be fun.
Right?


'' Feels like i'm caught in the middle,