always.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Veronicas

I';m leavin

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I don't knw where my life is heading/where I am going. I need to stop feeling afraid/:

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Belle of the boulevard

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

What am i now

Hello, the lucky one who checked this site.
I'm back.

And i prolly won't go mia for long now.

I miss writing in this space.Crafting what i want to say and how i feel... in sentences.It provides a sort of.... relief. Like how my lit teacher would call it ''emotional purging.?'' In my case, aint in a ... purging way. Really just a sorta release.

( oh and i realise i've got e habit of littering my sentences with dots now. Dont' get me wrong, i aint bored typing this.
More like....... I'm engaged in this thought process)

How ya been people?
Have ya'l been doing self checks on yourself lately?
Ever stopped for a moment, have a quiet time then look at yourself- your life. See how we've grown. I'm in college now. Whenever i catch younger girls looking at me, and holding their gaze for a second or two, it reminds me of my pre teen self--When I'll look at all ye bigger cooler girls and go '' ah, i wna be just like her.' ( At least i hope i give them that sort of feeeling ) Ha.

I realise.. i've been very careful with my words lately. Suddenly I become really cautious about what i say, how i put my messages across. Its sick. Kinda a sickening habit. People i don't talk to often will give me a ''huh? /what?' Communication. I hope it comes naturally to me once again so i can stop thinking (no people just type like its second nature to'em, you don't rly think) of the words to say .

I'm not strange.
(fyiiiii)

What next.
Whats new?

i've learnt to grow up, be less dependent on people,
find my way.It aint easy.
Sometimes we'll want to turn around and run back to anybody and anything that provides a sense of familiarity / comfort for us.How many of us realise, the past is the past. we should leave it there.There as it is. Its like expired milk. We should all burn the bridge..that bridge that allows us to backpeddle. Trudge forward. trudge forward. Ever wonder what life is about?you can search the world and never figure it out.

and my decision still haunts me.
it haunts me.. the only thing i can do
the only thing i can do. is to hold on to the promises
promises that its all gonna be ok. gonna be good,

Labels: i fly, When i fall

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Dandelion dust.

"' The sixteen year old on the other side of the world'.

Today ,18thjanuary started out with me wanting to nourish myself with some books.

I headed down to mph and ... i was expecting to find books for personal growth sorta stuffs. But GUESS WHAT. i ended up reading ''Justin beiber biography''. Say ''whuuuuuuuuuuuudd''.

Yeah really.

It was... awesome to read.

Such that, i spent 2hours on the cool cold floor devouring the book. laughing to myself at some moments of my read and then looking up to make sure nobody caught me in that silly state. What i realised, was that this biography written by this teenage boy served as such a wake up call for me unexpectedly.( Of my own life ) How... this dude live and breathe life is such an inspiration.He's a christian too! And there was a part that he said'' i never fail to share my faith. That i love god, and i want to tell every one else''. ( k i changed the words)

What love.

Justin bieber:

''in the bible it says 'everything works tgther for good, if you love god, but there are times when it doesnot at all. Times when you're like 'Yo, god! This is messed up. Could you pay some attention down here?' Maybe faith is the ability to chill and trust that smb up there got the list right.That when you're cool with whatever that comes your way, the reveal eventually happens and even the bad moments can turn out for good.''.

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See why i love this dude now? THOUGH. this is not the kind of guy i would go for laa. Just saying.I wna prank people too, i wna not go along with the rules and still make it somewhere, i wna not count on conventional wisdom cause god doesnt care bout that too,.,Wait. Am i asking to be taken on the road less travelled by? I .... i just..

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Side tracking a little, Its been eon since i last met valerie valencia and co.

Miss'em teenage starzzz.

Then i read another book by a triathelete, cool stuff. Titled "'Running by faith''.

He talked bout god too! Amazingly. No, i did not intentionally choose these books cause i knew these guys were gna talk about god. Just happened.

The better part is that, i can relate to how he feels. How when he feels tired, there suddenly is reserves of strength to tap on. I get it. And how he described that humans are made by god to be able to push limits takes risks and discover new frontiers that if 'the window dressing means more to you then personal evolution, it would only mean you have settled with life and decided not to grow no more. I don't wna be subjected to mediocrity. I have seen how it takes the spark off people's eyes, the spring in their step.No.

why do you think constantly?

why do you not put faith in the unfailing?

prawning gives me adrenaline rush. whuddd.

Labels: Me no historian., the past is the past

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Enchante

I walked a mile with Pleasure,
She chatted all the way;
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say

I walked a mile with Sorrow,
And ne'er a word said she;
but,oh! The things i learned from her,
When sorrow walked with me.

I saw this poem in a book and its lovely..
I want to blog so much, honestly i love blogging.
but i wonder why i can't seem to find it in myself to start blogging again.
I want to live life ,reflect on life and be glad about it again.

where did that spirit go?

^^ time goes on and slowly but surely i know, i know. who i can count on
Who ...somehow no matter what , we might never be fated to be good friends forever etc.

Whats this feeling i am feeelinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn`.

''i realise it was only just a dream''

3jobs stints in the holiday so far, I like.

Labels: Put your hands up

Sunday, November 21, 2010

On the first day of our story

So much to say but i'm scared i end up long winded.
So i chang hua duan shuo.

1) psyched up to work at Changi airport for a day tmr. ( Doing a pretty funnish-slackish job and it pays wellll . Thanks to the lobang)
2) Had an awesome time playing the long slide at t3 with kylie and janice
3)Girls have a safe trip
4) Girls have more sleepovers.
5) I look at girls in love, i look at their radiant smile.
and i look up at heaven i look at god and i know'' i don't lack anything as well''.
6) I've been coughing my lungs out the last few days.
7) Prom was like a sugarcoated dream, The night was a beauty.
8) Filled with beauties.
9) I ought to sleep now/
10) Peace out.

Labels: Our future seemed so bright.


KristalT,Still learning alot though the years are adding up . Come into my life fun and novelty.I love the sky so much. It has white fluffy clouds in the day and twinkling stars at night. And everytime i look up, i am comforted. sigh. life is tough baby! (Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Shut up. I don't care about your words. Mail me. My other link 1 My other link 2 My other link 3 Didnt your mum teach you to leave sthg behind for a lady. The box is pathetic, its out. Friend 1 Friend 2 Friend 3 Friend 4 Friend 5 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 March 2010 April 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 June 2011 November 2011 Random line of the day : I am happy just this way. Contentment, rly.	Wednesday, November 30, 2011 Veronicas I';m leavin Wednesday, November 30, 2011 • Wednesday, June 22, 2011 I don't knw where my life is heading/where I am going. I need to stop feeling afraid/: Wednesday, June 22, 2011 • Thursday, June 16, 2011 Belle of the boulevard Thursday, June 16, 2011 • Tuesday, June 14, 2011 What am i now Hello, the lucky one who checked this site. I'm back. And i prolly won't go mia for long now. I miss writing in this space.Crafting what i want to say and how i feel... in sentences.It provides a sort of.... relief. Like how my lit teacher would call it ''emotional purging.?'' In my case, aint in a ... purging way. Really just a sorta release. ( oh and i realise i've got e habit of littering my sentences with dots now. Dont' get me wrong, i aint bored typing this. More like....... I'm engaged in this thought process) How ya been people? Have ya'l been doing self checks on yourself lately? Ever stopped for a moment, have a quiet time then look at yourself- your life. See how we've grown. I'm in college now. Whenever i catch younger girls looking at me, and holding their gaze for a second or two, it reminds me of my pre teen self--When I'll look at all ye bigger cooler girls and go '' ah, i wna be just like her.' ( At least i hope i give them that sort of feeeling ) Ha. I realise.. i've been very careful with my words lately. Suddenly I become really cautious about what i say, how i put my messages across. Its sick. Kinda a sickening habit. People i don't talk to often will give me a ''huh? /what?' Communication. I hope it comes naturally to me once again so i can stop thinking (no people just type like its second nature to'em, you don't rly think) of the words to say . I'm not strange. (fyiiiii) What next. Whats new? i've learnt to grow up, be less dependent on people, find my way.It aint easy. Sometimes we'll want to turn around and run back to anybody and anything that provides a sense of familiarity / comfort for us.How many of us realise, the past is the past. we should leave it there.There as it is. Its like expired milk. We should all burn the bridge..that bridge that allows us to backpeddle. Trudge forward. trudge forward. Ever wonder what life is about?you can search the world and never figure it out. and my decision still haunts me. it haunts me.. the only thing i can do the only thing i can do. is to hold on to the promises promises that its all gonna be ok. gonna be good, Labels: i fly, When i fall Tuesday, June 14, 2011 • Tuesday, January 18, 2011 Dandelion dust. "' The sixteen year old on the other side of the world'. Today ,18thjanuary started out with me wanting to nourish myself with some books. I headed down to mph and ... i was expecting to find books for personal growth sorta stuffs. But GUESS WHAT. i ended up reading ''Justin beiber biography''. Say ''whuuuuuuuuuuuudd''. Yeah really. It was... awesome to read. Such that, i spent 2hours on the cool cold floor devouring the book. laughing to myself at some moments of my read and then looking up to make sure nobody caught me in that silly state. What i realised, was that this biography written by this teenage boy served as such a wake up call for me unexpectedly.( Of my own life ) How... this dude live and breathe life is such an inspiration.He's a christian too! And there was a part that he said'' i never fail to share my faith. That i love god, and i want to tell every one else''. ( k i changed the words) What love. Justin bieber: ''in the bible it says 'everything works tgther for good, if you love god, but there are times when it doesnot at all. Times when you're like 'Yo, god! This is messed up. Could you pay some attention down here?' Maybe faith is the ability to chill and trust that smb up there got the list right.That when you're cool with whatever that comes your way, the reveal eventually happens and even the bad moments can turn out for good.''. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- See why i love this dude now? THOUGH. this is not the kind of guy i would go for laa. Just saying.I wna prank people too, i wna not go along with the rules and still make it somewhere, i wna not count on conventional wisdom cause god doesnt care bout that too,.,Wait. Am i asking to be taken on the road less travelled by? I .... i just.. ------------------------------------------------------------- Side tracking a little, Its been eon since i last met valerie valencia and co. Miss'em teenage starzzz. Then i read another book by a triathelete, cool stuff. Titled "'Running by faith''. He talked bout god too! Amazingly. No, i did not intentionally choose these books cause i knew these guys were gna talk about god. Just happened. The better part is that, i can relate to how he feels. How when he feels tired, there suddenly is reserves of strength to tap on. I get it. And how he described that humans are made by god to be able to push limits takes risks and discover new frontiers that if 'the window dressing means more to you then personal evolution, it would only mean you have settled with life and decided not to grow no more. I don't wna be subjected to mediocrity. I have seen how it takes the spark off people's eyes, the spring in their step.No. why do you think constantly? why do you not put faith in the unfailing? prawning gives me adrenaline rush. whuddd. Labels: Me no historian., the past is the past Tuesday, January 18, 2011 • Wednesday, December 29, 2010 Enchante I walked a mile with Pleasure, She chatted all the way; But left me none the wiser For all she had to say I walked a mile with Sorrow, And ne'er a word said she; but,oh! The things i learned from her, When sorrow walked with me. I saw this poem in a book and its lovely.. I want to blog so much, honestly i love blogging. but i wonder why i can't seem to find it in myself to start blogging again. I want to live life ,reflect on life and be glad about it again. where did that spirit go? ^^ time goes on and slowly but surely i know, i know. who i can count on Who ...somehow no matter what , we might never be fated to be good friends forever etc. Whats this feeling i am feeelinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn`. ''i realise it was only just a dream'' 3jobs stints in the holiday so far, I like. Labels: Put your hands up Wednesday, December 29, 2010 • Sunday, November 21, 2010 On the first day of our story So much to say but i'm scared i end up long winded. So i chang hua duan shuo. 1) psyched up to work at Changi airport for a day tmr. ( Doing a pretty funnish-slackish job and it pays wellll . Thanks to the lobang) 2) Had an awesome time playing the long slide at t3 with kylie and janice 3)Girls have a safe trip 4) Girls have more sleepovers. 5) I look at girls in love, i look at their radiant smile. and i look up at heaven i look at god and i know'' i don't lack anything as well''. 6) I've been coughing my lungs out the last few days. 7) Prom was like a sugarcoated dream, The night was a beauty. 8) Filled with beauties. 9) I ought to sleep now/ 10) Peace out. Labels: Our future seemed so bright. Sunday, November 21, 2010 •