Love story

We were both young when I first saw you.
Remember when we loved sweetly, I felt appreciated?

We are chasing different things now.
Having been through loss, what I crave for now is stability, peace, fun, contentment. Grief comes up every once in awhile. But I've managed.

You crave the material/tangible. I crave the intangible. That's what setting us apart. 
I'm tired of figuring this out each time after a conflict. 
When did I become so afraid to lose you? The powerplay is scary.

You cannot empathise with what I am going through, or begin to understand what this means for me. I can't blame you for it without the same lived experiences... so I can only learn to get out of it and meet you where you are at.

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I've also been starting to think that I've let other people's thoughts run my life. let other voices in. and we lose sight of each other. forgot what it means to have only each other.

I've also thought that I've recently been sleepwalking through life. Maybe you have not lost your drive. and I'm the one who has settled, with no tangible aims, goals. 

Yet I'm still glad (deep down somewhere) that I have you. that I think our love for each other (if we harness it) can overcome any thing we face. 

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Let me prioritise the renewing of the mind, don't let shackles slow me down, cause me to stumble. I see that you want to live your best life. What does my best life look for me? It might be different from his best life.

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I do wna feel like I've lived at the end of this too. so I should remove the doubts, fears, any part of me that shrinks to fit others. and live more loudly and comfortably.

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Remember the movies/songs/feelings of the past. where we thought anything was possible? Where we romanticised life greatly. please keep poetry and art in your life. Don't lose that it could be the distinction between a typical and exceptional life. 

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"It's a new dawn, it's a new day. Feel good". Dream. Yet again. Dream and Achieve."

Peace out.