can i plz get a grip of myself.

.To be more effective and productive Kristal?
.To keep my emotions in check. Not let it hinder me.
-These are just.... Stuffs I place upon myself.
All I need is a shift in paradigm.
That difficult????
C'mon run to the finish line. Don't look back.
Don't look to the left or right. Look forward.
Keep moving. Don't let anything hinder you. Kristal.

Need to be brave.and focused.

SELF DISCIPLINE.

I need more focus and self discipline.  
Cant be influenced by the way of the world.
I want to live a proper and upright life.
A llife that is worthy of God's praise.
He is way the truth and the light.

Based on my character, if i were to be of the world....
Wonder where i'll be now.
Wonder how life will turn out for me now.
Could i have lead the life i led.
Prim and Proper.

"Life will pass me by if I dont open up my eyes."

I need my feet on the ground.
Not my head in the clouds.
i need to get a grip of my emotions.
It may be ok now. but who really knows what the road ahead really is like.
therefore. i cant. i got to get my priorities straight.
i need to make it.
There is so many things to do. A part of me just really.........................
but. I'm so close.

Plan to reach the peak and nail every subject. It's every content bits and pieces.

;( been fighting way too long.
tell me.how long can i keep up?will i get stronger.
will it be too much for me.
i keep comparing. looking at other people's life, comparing it with my own.
i should know by now that it don't matter. that it really dont.
its like.... i got myself out of the mess.
cleared the mess in my head. to fall back in, into this abyss of darkness.
so tell me.
let me know.
give me a clue. an inkling.

The feeling of struggle became a norm for me. Such that when I finally figured out what's bothering me ytrday...and rid of it. I almost...... 
On the verge of break through.

I'm at an all time low.

 wake me up.

;( what am I doing. 

Who am I. 

What do I make of this life?
What's life suppose to be. How's it suppose to go!

What am I doing with my life really!!!