I just wanna live.

Our feast. He he . Went out with cousins to eat tian tian huo guo.
Played games while eating.
he he.Our food >>

The toilet signs at tian tian huo guo. Lol,

17thMarch09.

Had wanted to go Mind's cafe which we thought was near haiji lane. So we walked and walked and walked ...... untill the end of the street.

I realized that when i am tired, i walk with exaggerated hips. Oh ho.

Every table had the sheesha stuff. And people offered us.

We couldn't find the darn cafe so , .....

Cabbed to Xin's and heng's house for sleepover.
We played maaanny games. Drinking games, taboo, ''ugly ugly ugly!'' and the rest, I forgot. Then, i got sleepy. So, everybody went to sleep at 4am. He he.

Woke up early to watch chart attackkkkkkk. {winks at magnet}.

Betty says it is very easy to tell when i am sad. I agree.. I realized that i cannot control how i feel. . Like it gets exteme lately. One moment i'm in heaven, the next... hellonearth.

I don't like how at one point of time, i can have a strong resolve do something, and the next thing i know,the resolve fades........................... ugh.How my thoughts contradict each other at different point of times, i think... it kinda sucks.I need... to find a way out of this.

Ever wonder what is your purpose in life? God... show me.
They come, they go, i never know. -----
So what will i amount to?Spiriting through the years

My birthday is coming. ! And, its coming so fast i hardly feel the excitement... .

I am only human. Nobody is perfect ! Tmd.
Then, why..

I don't know if i can stand another hand upon me,
See who dares to stand where i stood.
Tell me a story,where we all change.
I try to make conversation but I'm too far gone//

Trackers.

Tracker girls.- Luvvvvvv.

So hard... so hard to stay strong, but... i guess.. i have to. i must.
I don't want you to leave B. But... i know that both you and i can't do anything in this circumstance. Pls.. don't go. When i found you i was blessed. ..... (:
This is not a guy btw. Don't think wrong...

What else. Had a great day yesterday. After training, Amira Betty Tiara Asyilah Heather and i went to 7eleven, Heather's house then cabbed to school. I told the cab driver darn nicely to go faster cause we were going to be late. Then he freaking retorted '' I go fast, later got fine you pay ah! ''. Wtf. And i went, '' forget it ! ''.

Glad that the track bonding day went on pretty smoothly(: Geeh. Well, i realized that I like being piggybacked! Heather and Ashylah are strong mann. ANYTHINGG Rock on yo! Heh.

Pengda: Whats your group name?
Anything : Anything! Anything la! Anything.
Ho ho. Anything's the best ayyyyy.

The sec 3s were the team leaders for the day. And, Man. I had fun! (: With the right group of people anything can be fun atcually. Instead of rain, it was damn hot yesterday! So, its good .
''Zombie'' was fun. Went to hide with tiara in the feild where all the band people are. Met wendy and let her put toothpaste on my hand! The toothpaste was damn cool on my skin.
Lazy elaborate already.

I can't get in to any mood to do anything related to school.... after i heard what i heard. I wish.....i wish... argh. But, like what i said : ''i'll make every second count, when i'm with you B.''

This time it seems like life is just all set to bring me down.
but, god will make a way. when there seems to be no way.... right?
*deep breaths.
*A strangled smile.

Anything is possible.! Life is unpredictable.. this has just taught me... to be more courageous and strong. Bad stuffs will just catch you off guard and sweep you off your feet.

But.. Heh. I have my fair share of good stuffs too. So, heckkk. Come what may.

Btw . HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACQ. See ya on Friday.

Are you a tongue twister? No?
Then explain my tongue tied-ness....
(:

Tongue tied-faber drive.
Thinking out loud- lesley roy
Thinking of you-katty perry.
I love songs that starts with ''T''' now.

Ican'timagine me without you

high and fly, the speed is addictive

Got to find my own truth,
been living a lie,
been thinking out loud......


Hi world. i ran.... i got 2nd. Supposedly first loh! but, i ... somehow... again.. almost fell. walao. Stupid legs leh. Ok lah... i don't mean it. heh. I had quite a good day. ALOT of photos because of farah lah. Everywhere we go also take. Mrt tunnel, toilet, everywhere also take. Lol. but, i'm prettly glad we took photos. Its great for .... flashbacks when i grow older! heh heh. Shannon's back been very pain throughout. Lucky for me, my back not pain anymore! . I hope you're better man, { if you are reading this }. And thanks for the ride in your dad's SILVER car. ha ha.
Lazy upload photos. Till next time~ .

Can we last till twilight, break my dawn.

Random pictures;

Ho ho,. I am reading eclipise now! Thanks to nikki for lending me her book. ! Though the book looks... kinda koyak.____. Which should be the doings of darren hor.grins.And maybe abit of mine. Anyhow, Man. HOLIDAYS ARE HERE BABY, Time to let down my hair... {let loose i mean} and... yeah. Do things that will make me happy.Like... grins,. Cousins sleepovers, kbox... Outings with grace shaoyun alson and jiawei. Hm.... what else. Playgrounds, blading , cards , anything , even the ordinary with valerie and valencia and amanda! (= Time pasts quickly with them. Which reminds me, tomorrow is Valerie';s Birthday! . AWW MAAAN. PIAN ZI. HE HE. I MISS YOU AND.... LOVE YOU LAH.

HA HA HA. WAIT. I WILL.... MAKE SURE YOUR DAY ROCKS. {i hope you're not reading this man} grins. ho ho. What else.

I feel like going to a cock concert. Eh, no. rock concert. Typo error. To see everybody all high and crazy with eenergy, man! It must be great oh. Someday man. And... what else. Tests are over.

My results... are... passsable. Not really worth mentioning to me. Wonder how and what i must do to get excellent results. Seems so far out of reach, yet... near. If i add in the efforts and hardwork lah.

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Which brings me to the point that i must not spent my week wastedly yo. And. I think... if i am not wrong, there's track practices everyday! Due to the oncoming nationals. Tough luck. Tmr morning waking up early for 100m run ! Man, this time, i am going to ditch the starting block. I am not gonna take my chances and fall on my face at the starting line.

Time for dinner! I fed the last few... 'strands' of my long john silver fries to a kitten just now. (= Aw man.

I feel great baby., And, i gave up my seat for two people in the bus.

I see a halo glowing above my head. (=

Angel you see? Grins.

Betty keep misspelling angel as ''angle''. Same as huixun i think.

ha ha ha. Succkaars.

Time for dinner! (=.

PS: I am not gna edit my posts , cause its too much of a hasssle, So. deal with it. !

Amongst the noise, i fell silent.

What does it prove nothing,

Why do i suddenly stop believing... Ah?

Take me far away. Away from all this cliche stuffs i see in my everyday life.
Sometimes, i get sick of this. Suddenly, i have to drag myself out of bed everyday. I rmbr way back, i used to jump out of bed excitedly every morning. When i wake up, i will be full of rockin' energy to go to school. But, as life gets hectic, i lose that robust feeling. I know.... i am not like this. urgh.

Ps; just ignore the paragraph up there, the thought has been swarming in my head i had to vomit it somewhere.

Its hard to trust .... when you experienced sucha feeling when those who said ''i will be there'' left..... ultimately. Thats what i concluded on the way home with kylie just now. She was showing me how to talk [s]alot[/s] like her-,- Honestly, thanks. ! and.... i will go about to delete the line i had in my previous post.... after this yes. But, i think that different people have different ways to talk. So, hurrrh. Its okay . Grins,

So, we went to Nus today. Betty didnt even know what Nus stands for! Chhh. Sometimes, i got to hand it to her. (= Had a fairly great time. The making of motor was total crap-,- Paid ten holy bucks for a battery, a-very-very-strong magnet (which they say can suck out the colour from the computer) and screw driver. ! Walao. And all it did is spinspinspin. Very fun leh. My foot.

Photos :::::::::

When i find the cable.

Whirlwind, these winds they take us up and away

because i know that i only get to live this life only once.
do i really wna live this so unseriously?
and watch the seconds tick by, and let my every breath go to total waste?
i really don't.
''the mind is willing, but the flesh is weak''.
i read this somewhere from the bible i think.
how true is this? lord oh abba father in heaven, please.
would you grant me the determination and strength.
cause i know '' i can do all things through christ that strengthens me''
.i am the director of my own life. i want to make a good movie out of this life i have.
Peace out, goodnight. Life is ever so strange, sometiems you just suddenly feel impacted.,

I wonder. if. i am on the right track, that what i am doing now really leads me to where i want to be.,

(= Ahh, for now, life is still good.
I have so many photos.! Till next time.

A thousand times i failed, still your mercy remains

I move too fast, i couldn't see it.

Should i work on my conviction, and walk the narrow?
When you feel your heart's guarded.


Gosh. My back is a pain in the ass. Cause me pain and itch! /