Who's actually around?

So many people in this world.
But who will take the time to stop to hear my story?


I have so many things i want to say.
But who cares? Care enough to listen to my griviances.
I'm at an all time low.
I've hit rock bottom in life.
Does anybody care?
So many people want to talk to me... when things are going great for me.
But.. how many will actually stay around... after this mess i've got myself in?

Life has been nothing but a mess for me. since age 16.
Do i have enough strength to pick up the pieces?
Do i have the ability to?
I probably just have high wishes of who i want to be... what i want to be....
But. cant i??????
i feel robbed.
But its a terrible feeling to feel. I shouldnt engage in self-pity.
It does no good to anybody. fuck this.

is this how kids turns to delinquents?
they feel so unworthy. pointless to carry on well with life.
now could they?

i keep thinking of '' what should have been''.
but this is life. we make wrong turns sometimes.
Kristal, forgive yourself. was that a wrong turn?
i cant even tell.


so much self disgust.

you have no idea.