I need help/

Grant, O lord, that i may pass this day in gladness and peace,
without stumbling and without stain,
that reaching the eventide victorious over all temptations.
I may praise you, the eternal God,
Amen

Lord, damn. I thank you for betty! She's heaven-sent. Thanks dear bettyyyy. I shall not type out how i feel here lest it gets too mushy.! hehhh. But, Yeah.At the 11nth hour, You're there with your this-is-how-i-sound-before-i-sleep-voice. ! At every moment atcually. I Love ya. .

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Well, we can't be brave if we keep having good things happening to us! Thats what i learnt. I need to face the truth. You're not gna be there anymore. . The people who is not gna be there anymore, I should let them go.

Why harp on all these. I need to take a brave step forward. Yes, i cannot bow down to life and let myself stay put where i was before. If i want change, i aint gna masquerade it. I don't really know where to start, but.

I'm gna start.

I'm screaming for a change. I'm screaming out loud.


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When the whole world walks out,
yeah. And you see someone standing there.
That baby, is your true friend.
''You know, i never thought that that statement would ever apply to me.
No, but, yeah. you get the gist.




Did i mention that, I had many great laughs with asyilah on Spp day. Ha ha. Yeahh Baby. Bishan stadium is cool too! And i beated my personal best timing for 200m this yearr. We were on the platform laughing at the guys because they missed their train. But the train door suddenly open again, then they run in. Befr that we were like ''losers! losers! ''. Then when the train door closed and we were happily seating down, we realized that we were supposed to take that train too! Lol. Shytyy bang bang.

O.A.R. (Of A Revolution) : Shattered

Great song . go hear, won't regret one.

Sometimes i feel life's like a dammit game. It is like a freaking monopoly game. Have you played a monopoly game to the end? Well, not me. I always end it halfway, when im sick and tired. I wonder if that is the kinda attitude i would treat my life with. Sick & tired. When you have just nothing to hang on to. But God? Yeah He's enough. I screw myself. for not trusting in him whole heartedly . Not bothering to do any quiet time and all, but just cry out to him when i damnit need it. I don't feel good and worthy doing that. but ah. rly.

Who am i kidding really?

Oh, Me.

No wonder.

How can i fking kid myself.