Struggling for one more breath

1234, hi paw.

Grins. This reminds me of cow.

Badai did this. Crazy one. I tried like shit also cannot get. yeah man. 222.

The still running soohan despite tear of thigh muscle. Ho ho.

Trying hard to press on.

But it seems like the motivation is gone,

URGH.These few days,i have been enjoying school-less weekdays.I really..honestly did not like running.But, its the competition... when you see the other atheletes, you want to be better.There is this sudden urge to want to run faster and reach the finishing line a tat earlier.

Thats how.... thats why.

Have been enjoying the days alot,with many funny stuffs.Lol.Lately, i can't tell funny stuffs out. Cause when i say, it ends up... like.. not very funny leh.___. Lol. At times,

We worked pretty hard. The days past and it came down to this day where its finally...

The relay. The 4times100 relay.

I thought they say that if you picture yourself succeeding... then you will succeed.

I thought they say champions see themselves winning....

They expect and feel the tinge of imagined happiness when they believe.

I tasted shortlived glory before the race. Cause, in my mind, it was all '' YOU ARE GNA GET OWNED PEOPLE''. I really was... very much ready. Probably very much ambitious.

THEN WHY.

Why..... why was i clueless about where the ''passing zone'' of the baton was and in turn caused the team to get disqualified. I'M SORRY.Man, i seldom say sorry... I know that i am not one who backs down so easily. but, Man. URGH./

We did not beat our personal best because of the screwed passing. But, we could still qualify for semi -finals. But because i ran out of the zone, our rank dropped from Nationals 18, to Nationals 999. (DQ- disqualified)

The sudden rush of indescrible feeling washed over me. A mixture of disappointment, anger, all the shitty stuffs lah. And when i heard the juniors qualified, BHAM. That feeling sucks.

We could have celebrated our victory together. Congrats anyway people./

Whats worst is...

SOO HAN. When i saw you crying, when i put my arms around you, i wished i can share your sorrow. I didnt feel anything after the race.But, it hit me hard when soohan said ;''' I really try to do my best already! I reallyy..... tried. its my fault'. And. Bulleyes. I felt it.

Had prayed in between that hopfully we won't get disqualified.

We did anyway.

Yeah, the team don't blame me. Nobody did. Just spurring on and....encouragements.

but, yeah. You know.. theres this nagging feeling of blame tugging on my heart strings.

but no; I won't stain my footsteps by this tainted PAST.

he he. For all the encouragements and words of comfort,''THANKS''.

RIGHT BACK AT YOU.

I shall change out of my track pants and ho ho.

A Chapter closed.

This empty lair. ''Too many stars for one night to hold''. ..

I'ma hold out.

Aw damn, loser.

Champ. kris. rmbr.

If I had one wish............... you'll be my best friend, troubles never end, walk down the old brick lane.