Refocus.

My fear is if you have too much fun and forget about us. 

That more than 2 is a crowd. 

That I’ll no longer be as relevant to you in your life .

But I do know that holding on too tightly does not help. 

So. I’ll trust and let this go. 

If things go bad, please know I held on but it did not seem

that it was what you preferred. Gaps. Distance.

Whats constant/ safe and unfailing? Whats worthy? 

Lovinn.

 That’s bout itt. 

Sanity check

It was you and me against the world. 

And you promised forever more. 

Was it something that I said? 

Was it something that I did. 

That made me unbeautiful. 

Bout me/ bout us

Wish you cared. Ask me bout my likes/ dislike/ pet peeves/ what I cannot tolerate/ where my insecurity stems from/ what I would like to achieve.

But your focus is not here. So maybe someday you’ll see me and.. just me..? 

Someday. Sometime. We’ll know..

Hey there.

Almost do. 

This time of night you're still up
I bet You're tired from a long hard week
I bet You're sittin' in your chair by the window
Looking out at the city
And I bet Sometimes you wonder 'bout me

And I just wanna tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that every time I don't
I almost do
I almost do

Am expecting that we have the hard conversations, that we work towards certain common goals. That we align our values/ milestones. 

But conversations stay light. I dislike not seeing where I/ we’re reaching. So what then..? 

Dear Future Me..