More.

I’ve put you on a pedestal. Put you first. Because you didn't give me a sense of time, yet expect fast responses and penalise me otherwise (“replied too late”) , I’ve done that. 

Lose myself in loving him? Don’t. 

Love leashed.

Will also not accept lukewarm love.  

Hence, detach. 

Since communication won’t be a priority, we will either let misunderstanding fester, or love grow colder. This is self sabotaging. But maybe for the better. Who knows. But this is intentional. 

This includes not caring, allowing anything and everything else to grow. Because recall. Bringing this up led to a tiff. Hence, there is nothing more to say. 

Ok. See you. 

Keep it low

“Don’t expect”. Have learnt it. Don’t worry I won’t moving forward. Won’t expect to have casual conversations, to maintain communication. To envision life together. Will put them on hold. 

Will live my own life. Will stop attempting to fit you in first place. Will look away. Will focus on me. 

That two words are actually very liberating. Thank you. 

So many considerations, so many people I wanted to make happy.. wna live life on my terms. Not anybody else’s. Juggling the asks. Aint easy. Just wna get by. 

Am tired. Yet I can run a marathon. Am jaded. Yet feel like I could keep on going. Am bored. Yet I think I could continue to dig to find some interests. 

Strip away everything else. What do I want?  Wna go far away, see the world, create new experiences. 

Stop caring bout what others think. Be a lil braver. Live life my way. Sing a little louder, groove to the beat more.