fears overwhelm.
can't tell if. my character is.... good. doubts about my character values and who I am.
am I in reality a likable person.
afraid to be me.
in case, I. or anybody for the matter don't sit well with me.
feeling all ... horrid. shaping myself.]]
would I stop it.
that maybe in actual fact I am not as interesting, w/o character.

:(

what happened.

trying to fit in.

but really. there's no need...

surely, the pain I'm feeling right now would be smaller than ever the pain of feeling like I have  not done it right.

Come on Kris.
start clean start right.
what is your aim.
what do you wna get.
mature, beef up, strengthen, have a bigger capacity to do better things, feel. like you. can.
achieve excellence.
don't settle for mediocrity.

To-do list

tutorial for re 1102
forum participation in SSA
re1105
St1103

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Quiz for Re 1101
CA1 for SSA mod
CA1 for stats

Stuck b/w feeling like I've got the time to spare and having no time at all.
Get Crackin Kris.
Zero procrastination would be good.

actually really afraid.
feeling like I havent been putting in enough
please Kristal
Cmon.

I got into the school.I worked for
Right now, I need to focus.
right now,I need to make sure that I grab this chance
but thinking... at the same time.. I'm not earning like i would like to.
and it isnt good.
at age 20 not earning my keep like i should.
just spending my time, wilding it away, not dedicating time to my work,
not even properly and patiently getting my work done.
do i care?
do i.

would i even....
i need to prioritize. taking this too much too far.

focus kris. focus.

one life.
is your goal. there?
come on.

i wish i had support.
i wish  i wish.


Don't rely on past glories.
find. new values. new goals. new benchmarks. improvements.